It’s not about passion and inspiration. It’s about hard work and perseverance. It’s time to move forward.
I didn’t expect my first real failure to be tied directly to the blog; and so early on too.
Officially, I missed the February post. And it wasn’t even due to busyness or outside stresses, or anything remotely plausible as a justifiable excuse. It was just procrastination–plain and simple—until I missed the self-imposed deadline. I waited and put it off and then February was simply, over.
Part of me thinks that this is due to the fact that I’m simply not motivated anymore now that this is a living breathing project, instead of just an idea that couldn’t fail. Something that could do no wrong, but also do no right. Ideas aren’t teaching moments. There’s nothing to learn and grow from when an idea stays just that—an idea.
Failure was something I never liked. Too scared to fail, so I never moved forward. But this is the wrong way of thinking. Of feeling. Of living. Fear of failure keeps me from trying. From experiencing. From learning. And it’s kept me from growing as a person as well.
This year was supposed to be dedicated to changing that. To challenging it. Facing it. Overcoming. But I let myself stagnate. I stopped. I didn’t want to try and fail. So I put it off. And ultimately, that caused me to fail.
Now I know. More rigorous schedule. This needs to be routine. It’s not about passion and inspiration. It’s about hard work and perseverance. This is a job. I need to treat it like one if I ever plan to move forward and grow.
No more procrastination. No more fear. It’s time to learn.